♥ moment of truth ♥

In the last 6 months I went from having no Internet for 3 whole years, to signing up and being introduced to a whole new world........facebook, blogging, Etsy, and a lot of putting myself out there. My creative wheels began to turn again, I had found a new area to turn my attention to. A little too much attention? YES! I jumped in with both feet! I almost immediately started this blog and began to work on stuff for an Etsy shop. It has felt great to have such a wonderful creative outlet, but it slowly began to make me feel guilty and a little off balance. It has consumed up quite a bit of my time mentally and physically, which is fine, if I could just find the balance.

Right now my family and I are in the midst of a few life changes. My husband is trying to transition in to a new career, which might entail moving......will he get the job?...or won't he? Will me move 45 mins. away or across the country? I don't know. All I know is that there has been a lot of renovations going on around here, which fills up most of my time. That alone has been taking a lot of quality time away from my wee ones. So, needless-to-say, when I do feel like I have to get a post up on my blog or a project done.....the guilt begins to fester. My priorities are out of whack! I have tried to maintain a schedule, but this all just doesn't seem to fit in with all that is going on in our lives.

I think my first mistake was jumping into it all a little too soon. I bypassed the planning and the praying it over. I definitely want to pursue my blog and the Etsy shop, but the blog posts will have to be at a slower pace and the shop will have to be put on hold. I have been praying about this for the past few weeks and feel at peace with my decision, I actually felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. My plate is just a little too full right now. Full of good things...exciting things.

In the mean time.......

I will be focusing on my family....... getting the house ready to sell (just in case), my family prepared to move (just in case), and spending a lot more time with these two precious little beings.....

experiencing moments like this.......

AND I also look forward to the moments I feel at peace with sitting down to create, to sew, to draw......with out the pressure. I am excited to make things for my home with out the thought in the back of my mind that I have to get things done for the shop first. I look forward to working on projects to put in an Etsy shop that I plan on opening when the timing is right.....I look forward to building up my arsenal of handmade goodies to maybe one day have a booth at a craft show...... I look forward to being prepared.....to having a plan.....to maybe even build up a brand....on my time...on God's perfect timing. These are things I want to do, now is just not the time......and that is okay.

I recently read something in a book that I am reading that kind of underlined my decision:

Too often in our lives, accomplishment and doing overshadow growth and becoming. We frantically scurry around, trying to paint the picture with our activities, but our being must be settled before our doing.

On that note.....I have a lot of growing, becoming, and settleing to do. I am not going away completely, just shifting focus.....FOR NOW!! I still look forward to sharing the things that I will inevitably create and the wonderful moments that I will have, I will just be sharing when I can......when the time is right.

Ta Ta FOR NOW!